I had this on my mind for a while but only through a lovely group of online friends i got up and actually put my thoughts into words. I only started to think about it more recently when my mum ask me if I am talking to my baby?
Do I?
I feel like I don’t know what to say and I defiantly feel like this time around with my 2nd Pregnancy because I feel more sick and started throwing up I don’t give “Blob” as much attention as in rubbing my belly, talking to the baby and thinking about it.
I sometimes caught myself even forgetting I am actually carrying our 2nd Baby inside me.
Is that normal?
Why do I feel like this?
Why do I feel like this?
Why can’t I enjoy it as much with more excitement as I did with Finn over 3 years ago?
I worry can I love this 2nd Baby as much as I love him right now?
The only positive thing I have on my mind is I know Finn will love his new sibling a lot because he loves giving “Blob” kisses cuddles and he even tells him off saying “Blob you need to be nice to Mummy” (a little saying his Daddy tells him before he leaves In the morning to go to work) when I don’t feel good or just come back from emptying my stomach contents.
Is it bad that I want the 10th February (plus, minus of course) to hurry up that I finally “done” the 9 month of being pregnant and feel “myself” again (plus the tiredness what comes with a newborn)?
I would love to hear your thoughts on this, because right now i feel like i am the only person having such bad thoughts and i am pretty down about it.
AK xx
Comments (2)
Aww, AK. I think it's quite natural to feel like that as I did too! Naturally with the 2nd, you have less time on your hands and all your attention is given to your 1st born! You will love baby number 2 as much. I hope the sickness soon subsides! Please don't feel down xx
Ak I would say perfectly normal, I sometime forgot I was having the golden child I was so busy running after peanut! 2nd time is different but it doesn't make you a bad person your baby still knows you love them xxxx